Bewildered Trooper

Emotions hit me like a ton of waves
Wanting them to go away, never come back again
I guess I’m saving them for a rainy day
I don’t want to revisit the pain
Tears falling, blood stains
Broken hearts and broken plates
Smashed up but it was good the love we made.

Laws of physics states that
all bonds will eventually be broken
Worn down, ripped apart
Converted to something new
But if you’re determined
Maybe you’ll be able to salvage what’s left
You didn’t hold on tight enough
To what was left of us
And yet you’re so surprised
That I, too, faded into the gentle folds
Of your memories
Changed.

I Don’t Need Your Apathy
If you lost your feelings to the world’s ways
Then surely I don’t look for your sympathy
But there are few who understand
I do look for their empathy
And their kind words of encouragement.

You can be a good person
with a kind heart and still, say no.

Fin.

-Abhishek

Dawn of Awakening

At the bay of the sea
I saw a Pearl inside the cluster
Free yet so secured

Waving my bare hands
inside the water full of ripples
I was living the moment of
utter quiescence.

Then,

I wondered,

It’s been months since I even tried to write up an actual blog about something. Something so vulnerable that is in my mind from quite a time now.
I’ve had some rant left in me about current affairs and stuff that even resembles hope for our future. All that constant constipated stuff that covers up that whole breaking news hour.

Sometimes, I wonder, why they chose us. Us over any other species. A species which is been gifted with such Intellect. A species which can communicate and Understand.
We’re so close to achieving greatness yet so far. We all have big dreams for ourselves. We all, won’t let a single eye bat our own; Our family. Have we finally reached the point where
Only the blood-related is considered as Family. Is there any trace of Humanity left on this Planet.

Sometimes, I wish i could track back our footprints and start from the scratch. But maybe i was too late. Introduced too late, for such delicate situation.
I’m no saint. I’m inseparable. Exposed at times where i don’t need to be. Perhaps the time is what, I don’t have or is it the Patience? Which I never cared to keep.
So what went wrong? It’s been approximately 14 billion years since the Big Bang. Even After accomplishing things and technology that were never predicted, We stand aside from the sole intention we were meant to live for. Is it something that has to do with our insecurities? Is it the influence of the greed to get more; expect more? Are we really doing this?

Sometimes, I get panicked. Not because I’m supposed to be but maybe, i was meant to be. I panic when the situation is out of my bounds. I fear when the wrongdoing has all the
stronghold. I dismay when something happens even when i never intended for it. Similarly, this time, we’re living in, is no illusion of terror, It actually is the apocalypse
which we never hoped to see. And maybe, we’re too late to stop it. Maybe, we’re the only reason it occurred in the first place. Maybe, we were too busy running after the things which can be priced. Concentrated on filling our lust and longing, while our only hope; our only planet, Panicked.

Sometimes, I hope for a change. Not a change that could revolutionalize the world. Not a change that would jeopardize our position either but a change in the thought process. Change in the opinion of every individual on a scale where there is some hope left for Unity. Where we all could deal with our deeds. Kneel down to our Sins. Where at least there’s some pitch left for our future to cope up. Where we could actually build something so concrete that it can be shattered by nothing.

I never asked to be special. I never asked for anything fancy. I never asked for this discreet pain. I never asked for this broken Peace. I never asked for the silent Wars and Politics.
I never asked for a day where i wake up in the morning, and everything is either dead or lost. I never hoped to see that day. And maybe, i shall never be.
The only thing i ever asked for is the Survival of the innocent. Endurance for Humanity.
To the wrongs that need resistance, To the right that needs assistance, To the future in the distance, Give yourselves. – ( By CCC)

Fin.

-Abhishek

Enlightened Spirit

Peace, like a poem,
is not ahead of itself
can’t be imagined before it’s made
can’t be known except
in the words of it’s making
the grammar of equity
the syntax of mutual aid.

A feeling towards it
obtusely sensing a rhythm, is all we have
until we begin to utter its metaphors
learning them as we speak.

I stood at the end of the universe
Now waiting for the beginning of time.
Dropping my feet into the abyss where everything
that had shattered came back together.

Now if you listen closely
I’ll tell you what I know
Storm clouds are gathering
The wind is gonna blow
The race of sage man is suffering
And I can hear the moan
‘Cause nobody, but nobody
Can make it out here alone.

I would empty my heart of all
this sphere’s implacable roar
And I would turn to my home
and fall,
Asleep in my home once more.

And I would forget what the cities say
the folly of all the wise folks
‘Cause I have a broken heart to heal
And a troubled soul to save.

Fin.

-Abhishek