Retaliating Fear

I have this fear
This fear of falling

Once I dreamt
Of a bridge with a void
And I had to get across
utterly terrifying

But not as frightening
As falling for you

Fearing my mind
Scared by the sight
All I see is the midst of a fright night.

Darkness is sometimes strange
When the tendrils of its power
Marks your skin.

Adrenaline, Power, Sin.
All comes from within.
The stone cold mind of belief
with nothing to preach.

Fearing my heart
As it draws it’s last breath
Sending me off
Into an eternal sleep.



Fantasy Rendezvous #3

Dim lights, static rains
Parade of the fallen
Knocking our doorsInto the wilderness
lives the creature
Destined to achieve mortality

Pretending Errands
acting against the absolute
defining inferiority

Desire for the impossible
crave for perfection
resist from the ordinary

Tempting Flames
start with a clean slate
To martyr, the kingdom come.

Mesmerize the banished
tender love all the evil
with the vital force of
the Spirit and Soul.

Even the tiniest crack
light seeps in
creating an atmosphere
full of hope.

turning slowly with a misty gaze
a taste of autumn’s coming glory
gradual distance growing
yet still a sparkle in those eyes.

lapping in the breezes
and in the distant sky
we see, we smell, we taste,
every sense anticipates
as droplets in-formation wait
the rains are coming again.



Fantasy Rendezvous #2

Everything falls into place
We control the outcome here
Any misfortune leaves no trace
New forms of happiness always near
I want this to be life, but in actuality
I’m living in a fantasy

‘Cause this life can get a little mundane
I can’t help but shudder
When I imagine my future
What am I doing with myself?
Am I what people expect of me?

I always feel tired
Yet I seem restful
My problems are propelled
Under a black rug in space
And I feel like I carry guilt
Each and every single day.

It was not sadness
That caused the tears to fall
But the transcendent fear
That belittled the crushing
from the weight of this universe.



Fantasy Rendezvous #1

Silent Leisure
Of peakless noise
Comes the demons
from the past
running down the aisle
mercilessly killing
every soul they encounter.

These flawless fantasies
Fleeing cruel reality
And the bitter taste
Of living.
Where I can fly to
find some Warmth
A Safe Heaven
And welcoming arms.

Away from the terrors
Of unforeseen attacks
These fatal wounds to an
Already breaking heart.

Please, Let me fly
If not to the truth
Then at least to a place
Where I believe
I am loved.



Emptiness – a triumph in disguise

Running away from responsibilities
Into the unknown fields
Stepping off from the crimson edge
Into the darkness of the void.

Discovering the bitter truth
hiding all that overwhelming pride
Nothing in this world can match
The shallow emptiness of our souls.

The absolute hour draws near
No way to cancel the forthcoming
Stepping into my grave
Won’t change my obscure mind.

So, wipe away your tears
And reflect in your emptiness
Step over your fears
And embrace the nothingness.

Echoes of silent emptiness
in spaces where I should be.
A million ways to rephrase you
to conjure you
so immaculate and complete.

But I am no Gem
more like a Stone
forgotten dust and old bones
no words have spoken me free.

Endlessly I lend my breath of life
until there is no air left to inhale
No spells nor words shall ever be cast
to invoke the revival of me.



Vigorous Treason

A shot in the dark
A past lost in space
Where do I kick off
The past and the chase
You hunted me down
Like a wolf, a predator
I felt like a deer in love lights.

You loved me and I froze in time
Hungry for that flesh of mine
But I can’t compete with the vixen,
who has brought me to my knees
What do you see in those pale eyes?
‘Cause I’m falling to pieces.

Did it lie in wait
Was I bait to pull you in
The thrill of the kill
You feel is a sin
I lay with the wolves
Alone, it seems,
I thought I was part of you.

Sad gray eyes
a sobbing voice
a fragile heart
and a slumping gaze,
I wish we meet again.



Outlandish Enigma

We live in cities you’ll never see
on a screen
Not very pretty, but we sure know
how to run things
Living in ruins of a palace
within my dreams
And you know, we’re on
each other’s team.

I’m kind of over getting told to throw
my hands up in the air, so there
all the cups got broke shards
beneath our feet
but it wasn’t my fault
And everyone’s competing for a love
they won’t receive
‘Cause what this palace wants is
A release.

Losing friends and I’m chasing sleep
Everybody’s worried about me
I’m In too deep
And it’s been Four years
I miss my home
But there’s a fire burning in my bones
I still believe
Yeah, I still believe.

And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?